Thus Far

This semester of school has been one of my most successful ones yet. I’m a full time student, taking four classes. This time last year, I had just about quit on schooling. I tried and failed to take my classes and it really set me back behind other students my age. I was really quite nervous to start school this fall. I had taken an online class this past summer, but the idea of having to actually wake up, attend all my classes, and even socialize with other people scared me so much. I felt like an outsider, I was still new to Oxnard and didn’t know what to expect from the people out here. As it turned out, my fears were all in vain.

My classes I’m taking are far from easy. They require lots of attention, and sometimes I am overwhelmed by everything I need to do. But I have to remind myself that this is college, its not supposed to be easy. My biggest concern is simply staying on top of it all, and coming out with the best grades I can. I’m not one to brag, but im a pretty smart girl. My biggest downfall is my laziness, it ALWAYS gets the best of me. I put myself into situations where I have the choice of following through with something for school, or indulging in some leisurely activity. The leisure tends to win over a lot. This habit is one I truly want to shake. I know that if I can manage to grow past it and to develop better habits, then I will be a much more productive student.

My motivation isn’t something I can really put a title on. Its more of an emotion, like passion. I go to school and I push myself purely for the want of doing better for myself. I’ve come from a world where kids my age slide under the radar and don’t pursue any greater purpose for themselves, and that’s not something I want for myself. I want to have an education, I want to have a career (not just a job), I want to have a comfortable lifestyle years down the line because I worked hard to earn it. As long as I keep this all in mind I know I can push myself through any challenge I may encounter on this long adventure.